Have you ever?
Have you ever wanted something that you were certain you couldn't have? Of course you have, everyone has. But that feeling of futility is exponential when that object of desire is a person. The thing is that I am struggling through this right now. The irony of the thing is that if you can't have it it really does make you want it more. I hate to be a living cliche but there it is. So I have to struggle through every day in my lab, working right beside this person. I think we are great friends, and could likely stay that way assuming I don't fuck it up.....but there is the crux of the situation. Because off in cliche land it is also said that you should take chances with love and life because if you don't then you never know what you might have missed. But sticking with the cliche's once more is not also true that to have someone in your life as a friend is better than not at all? WOW do I ever have a high school dillema on my hands.....prob
lem is I'm 29.....life is hard!!