Dear DesnaToday marks one of the saddest days in my life, the day we lost our dog Desna. She's been with us for 8 years now and over the past 2 she has grown a closer devotion to me so much so that sometimes I was the only person in the world that she would listen to.

I remember when we first got her and she was this big round pudgy ball that looked like her hair was actually a wig from 15th century France. She was a big ball of fur and nothing more. We almost lost her once before when deer wondered into our yard, and in a show of dominance and protection, she and her sister Atlas chased them off and up into the woods. We were able to find Desna that night but not Atlas (we never knew what happe...

Dear DesnaToday marks one of the saddest days in my life, the day we lost our dog Desna. She's been with us for 8 years now and over the past 2 she has grown a closer devotion to me so much so that sometimes I was the only person in the world that she would listen to.

I remember when we first got her and she was this big round pudgy ball that looked like her hair was actually a wig from 15th century France. She was a big ball of fur and nothing more. We almost lost her once before when deer wondered into our yard, and in a show of dominance and protection, she and her sister Atlas chased them off and up into the woods. We were able to find Desna that night but not Atlas (we never knew what happened to her).

The worst part is today she was fine, something just happened and she died. She came very close to dying in my arms which scares me on so many levels. Needless to say I'm writing this to help myself cope as well as to honor her. For the past year and a half she has been a constant in my life. She wakes up with me, goes to bed with me, sits next to me while I game. Hell if you've been in an XBL party with me you've surely heard me talk to her.

She helped me in so many ways that I realize now. She kept me sane at night knowing she was always next to me in case something happened. She missed me so much when i left for work it almost hurt me to leave her behind some days and she was always there to great me when i got home and wouldnt stop barking till I petted her upstairs so I would only focus on her.

Desna I will love you forever and the only good this about this is you died painlessly. I hope there is a dog heaven and right now you and Atlas are getting to play together again, just be a lil nicer Desna she is your sister after all. But tonight is going to be a very lonely night for me as I wont on the big D to help me sleep.

ALSO I'm posing this to help me grieve over her, I dont want remarks, comment,s messages, skypes, anything. I just can't handle that right now or probably ever. I just needed to to get this out of me or let it eat away at me.