halosavior

Second best day of my life ever!Well people the day has finally come. Yesterday was the most awesome day of my life. Alexis, the voice of Serenity, came to visit her cousin. Her cousin was having a graduation party for graduating from high school. Well Alexis and I decided we should meet because her cousin lives like half and hour away from where I live.

I got there and called her on the phone to tell her I was outside. I heard her screaming to her cousin saying what should she do. It turns out that she didn't expect me to come. She thought I'd call and say I couldn't make it. So we got to the house and she answered the door. My mom and her mom got to talk for a short bit because my mom had to go to chruch. Turns out that Alexis forgot to tell everyone that I was coming. I don't think she got that telling your cousin is enough. So we met and didn't say much at first. It was just a few words here and there. So we went downstairs to go play some pool. There were a few more words being said, but nothing really. There was a lot of laughter when I got my arm stuck in one of the pockets trying to get a ball that was stuck. Yeah I think I still got marks on my arm. After that we're tied. All we had to do was get that 8 ball into the hole. It was my turn and I told her I would bounce the ball across the table, make it bounce twice from side to side and make it go in the pocket on my left. See I could've just aimed left and made it in, but I wanted to mess with her. She said she'd owe me $5. Now who wouldn't take up that offer? So sure enough I made the shoot, and it gently rolled in from all the bouncing. With that she said we didn't shake on it, and she was saying that with an open mouth of amazment. LOL.

After that she suggested that we go jump on the trampoline. It was ok at first and were just watching eachother bounce. Weird thing was that we were completely seperated from eachother and yeah. Even weirder thing was that all the leaves and seeds that fell from the tree above kept following me and let's just say my feet weren't in the best shape ever. With that I said my feet were buring from the sun on the blackness so we left.

We went to the front yard and sat on this sweet bench. There we did some more talking and like yeah. We took a few pictures. After that she got thirsty and we went inside to get something to drink. Now when we neared the kitchen I freaked because the family was all over there and even though they said they didn't mind I was there unexpectedly. I was standing in that hall way for the longest time and Alexis is there saying its alright. Thankfully the drinks were outside and I rushed past those people and out to the backdoor. Phew. With that we walked towards the lake.

I suggested we swim, but nope it was dirty. LOL. So we found this path that ran along the lake side. I said we should just take a walk on it and stuff. So we walked and walked on this pleastant lake side with the sun shining it was awesome. Soon we neared this clearing. 2 huge trees shading us from the sun, surrouned by 2 lakes, and tall grasses covered us from sight... that is with us not standing. At first we sat down and just talked. This is where it all started. First she'd tease me by throwing twigs at me. It hurt, especially the ones that fell down my shorts... yeah don't ask. Oh and nothing happened like you think.

A few hours later we went to go eat. Or she did and I just sat there drinking, and having to say no with every breath I took. I swear she wouldn't stop asking if I was hungry. LOL. With that she went inside to use the bathroom leaving me with the parents, brother, and all the cousins. They thought I was awefully close for just meeting Alexis. Which I want to say is not true because I've known her for 2 months, but hey its the internet. So yeah. I couldn't stand the stares so I spilled pop on myself, on purpose, and went inside in search for Alexis. She was coming out as I was coming in, but I still had to clean myself off. With that we raced back to the clearing that rox way hardcore. She lost, and used the excuse of just eating. LOL.

After that we spent 6 hours there. Together, alone, just getting to know eachother. We watched the clouds go by, feeling the light breeze of the wind. Playing with her hair, throwing more twigs, flirting like always, and just yeah. We'd just lay next to eachother, she'd be on her stomach most of the time and well since I can't hold still I was flipping from back to front. I couldn't stop staring at her eyes, they were so beautiful. It was amazing. And for the first time I was ready to let go my fear of love with a girl like that. My fear of heartbreak and love problems were just swept away in that instant. I actually fell in love. Not a Kariann or Mel love, this was something else. Something I've never felt before, and yeah I liked it. So our eyes met, and I did something I thought I'd never see in my life. I had my first kiss. Yes people my first kiss, no one saw it coming. After that we just spilled everything about eachother and just getting to know eachother.

The sad thing though was that we decided we wouldn't go out. She lived in another state and it was too far. I told her I'm not into internet dating, and she agreed with me. I would've asked her out in a heart beat, but no. So we're just friends with benifits. LOL. When it was finally time to go we gave eachother a long hug, I swear I never wanted it to end. When I finally let go I gave her a necklace and headed home.

Alexis is the most amaizng person in the world, words can't describe her beauty and grace. It's just awesome. It was both of our first kiss, and yes we know we're late

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A little later on that day on the phone I told her something that she was a bit confused about. I said: "So who do you think you kissed today? Did you kiss Joshua or halosavior?"

Surely it had to be one person if the other one died right? What do you think she said?

God loves you

6 years ago | Comments (16) | + 1 Cool

halosavior

geezThe greatest fear is judgment of the world. But to overcome this fear we must fear the judgement of the Lord, and a wise man fears the Lord.

I think a certain someone made up everything except for the wise man thing, because that came from the bible.

7 years ago | Comments (5) | + 1 Cool

halosavior

this song got it rightthis is what halosavior would think about every second of his life:

Is this one for the people?
Is this one for the Lord?
Or do I simple serenade for things I must afford
You can jumble them together, my conflict still remains
For holiness is calling, in the midst of courting fame

Cause I see the trust in their eyes
Though the sky is falling
They need Your love in their lives
Compromise is calling

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
What if I lose my step and I make fools of us all
Will the love continue?
When my walk becomes a crawl
What if I stumble, and what if I fall?

What if I stumble, what if I fall?
You never turn in the heat of it all
What if I stumble, what if I fall...
Everyone's got to crawl when you know that

Father please forgive me for I cannot compose
The fear that lives or the rate at which it grows
If struggle has a purpose on the narrow road you've carved
Why do I dread my trespasses
Will I leave a deadly scar?

Do they see the fear in my eyes?
Are they so revealing?
This time I cannot disguise
All the doubt I'm feeling
You're up against a wall, it's about to fall

I hear you whispering my name you say
My love foryou will never change never change

What if I stumble?
What if I stumble?
What if I fall?
You never turn in the heat of it all
What if I stumble, what if I fall?
You are my comfort and my God.

Is this one for the people, is this one for the Lord?

7 years ago | Comments (3)

halosavior

This is how it happenedhalosavior did not wish to leave this site and everyone. He did not want to leave everything that he started with all of you. He left because he was foreced too. Why? You should all know why, ask yourselves why you did it? It's alright here:

On the night of June 16 halosavior was brutally murdered. Hundreds of people came to his door in anger and mixed emotions. He held out his hand and in turn they brought him to his knees. With that each and every one of them stabbed him in the heart. The last person to stab him was his best friend. One who he thought he'd be friends with for the rest of his life. His last breathe before dying before everyone was a powerful one. He said "God loves you" and died.

Many say they will miss him, but how can you say that when you killed him?

I, Joshua, lost a very awesome part of me. It was so special to me that I refer to him as another person, because that is exactly what he was. halosavior taught me many things has he has for you. He was there for me as well. Call it helping myself and what not, but halosavior was another person and that's all he will ever be. This sounds weird because halosavior was me, he was in real life me. But as time progressed I thought of him as another person.

7 years ago | Comments (12)

halosavior

This is how it endsWith me leaving. Most of you can tell why, and I hope you will never have to feel what I have felt in this past year. If there is one thing you must remember me by, remember what I have been trying to teach you for a whole year...

God loves you

7 years ago | Comments (16) | + 3 Cool