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Caiti Velvet
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Today is an even better day than yesterday.Here's hoping they just keep getting better!

Love wins.
1 week ago  |  Comments (4)
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The. Worst.That's me.

My journal was going to be about how I lost a ton of weight very quickly after I misplaced my appetite. I've finally been putting weight back on and I feel so much better.

It was very articulate - until it was gone. I lost the doc.

ALAS - when I get the energy to rewrite it, and I stop being cranky about it, I will rebuild! It was really just about how, since changing medicine and getting my appetite back, I feel stronger, healthier and I'm happier with how I look. Being runway model thin isn't all it's cracked up to be - especially when you don't actually want to be that way...

Tldr; I'm getting healthy again.

2 months ago  |  Comments (35)
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Stay TunedSorry I haven't been very present. I'm working on a journal to post this week that I'm putting a lot of thought into, so I'll see you then.

2 months ago  |  Comments (14)
Caiti Velvet
Take a MomentToday we lost a friend. We lost a mentor, an inspiration, a visionary, an enigma; a part of our family.

I'm not going to attempt to write any kind of summary of Monty's life. That's not my place, nor my intention today.

My intentions are to let you know that it’s okay to be impacted by this. it’s not “silly”, “pathetic”, "random" or “weird”.

If you're here, chances are Monty has made an impact on your life somehow, and this tragic news will impact you. You will feel something, and that is not only natural - it's normal.

I want you to know that the support, compassion and kindness you've shown each other is indescribable; but sometimes we need a little more help than we'd like to admit.

Events like these can be triggering for some people, so I hope that you take the time to be aware of how you're feeling - checking in with your body and listening to your internal dialogue.

If you're noticing that your body is feeling a bit out of the norm (perhaps you've got heightened senses, are trembling, having trouble breathing), your thoughts are darker than you feel comfortable with, or they're more difficult to control - please acknowledge these signs.

Everyone processes trauma and tragedy differently. Personally, I've been on anti-depressants and anti-anxiety medicine on and off for years, I attend group therapy three times a week, I see my individual therapist once a week and my incredible psychiatrist once a quarter. This may seem dramatic to some, but it's what I need to do to deal with my past traumas. I'm telling you this because I'm passionate about eliminating stigma associated with any treatment or aid needed for a mental health crisis.

I hope to empower you to seek professional help if you're experiencing feelings (physical or emotional) that make you feel unsafe or frightened for yourself. It’s important that I say “professional” because, respectfully, however well intentioned our friends and family are - they are usually not trained psychologists or psychiatrists.

A lot of health insurance companies provide low cost access to mental health assistance, especially if it's for therapy. Just like teeth cleaning is free because it’s a “preventive action”, so is seeing a therapist. Finding someone is as simple as using Google to find people in your area that take your insurance. If you don't have insurance but you are in a position to consider seeing a clinical practitioner, this locator can assist you in finding someone near you.

If you don't have health insurance, or just need a little assistance to get you out of a tail spin, I recommend the following sites for the US and Australia.

National Suicide Prevention Line: 1 (800) 273-8255
Lifeline Australia: 13 11 14

There are also many non-profit organisations specific to your areas that you have access to, if you search for them.

Please be aware that positive mental health strategies vary from person to person.
Something that might work for you, mightn't work for another person. Checking in with how you feel about things is an important step in finding what works for you, and I encourage you to practise. Sitting with feelings is not a negative thing, in fact it's an important part of healing - acknowledgement. However, as I previously mentioned - feelings of fear, panic and being unsafe can be troubling. I encourage you to seek that little extra help, should you need it - because sometimes we all do, even if we don't talk about it.

Of course, if at any time you feel you might be a danger to yourself or others, please call Emergency Services immediately. They're there to help you.

This is my homage to Monty. Over the duration of his hospitalisation, I've struggled to find words when discussing him, his work and his contagious passion. Right now is no different.

This sucks. Epic fucking balls. Regardless, you deserve to feel safe; we all do. Please check in with yourself.

For Monty.
5 months ago  |  Comments (69)
Caiti Velvet
Establishing LifeI moved to Austin, got married, adopted a dog, started modelling, Extra Life, moved house, moved house again, ran a convention from scratch, was in a short film, worked/working on a feature film, Extra Life, went to Australia for two weeks, am adopting a kitten and am now working at the company I ran the convention for, as well as still modelling and acting.

Everything in my life has changed so dramatically, and I wish the transition was as easy as writing the above sentence was.

I just want you to know that this community is still a huge part of my life, but that I've become more of a lurker than a contributor while I've undergone these huge life changes.

I'm still 'watching' you, even if I don't reach out to you a lot. I'm sorry I seem distant, but I'm still figuring out my place here in Austin, what I want to do, where I belong and even on some days - what will motivate me to get out of bed.

Thank you for being so patient and to those of you who've reached out to me to ensure I'm settling in okay. I love you all. You mean the world to me and I'm so grateful to be a part of something so special.

7 months ago  |  Comments (58)
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RTX 2014 RecapIt was incredible.

11 months ago  |  Comments (20)
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Community Panel & Convention EtiquetteG'day!

RTX is this weekend and I'm incredibly humbled to be on a panel on Friday the 4th of July!

It's called Cultivating a Community: Hosting Successful RT Community Events and I am extremely excited to join @GB330033, @Newbs, @Steffie, @Aidan, @LoZelda, @Cheshire_Cat and @Karl's team to combine our experiences with Rooster Teeth online and offline, to hopefully provide you with the tools you need to run your own fan events!

The panel is at 12pm on Friday the 4th of July in Panel Room 16.

Also, in case you haven't seen them, I created a three part journal series about Convention Etiquette which can be found here! If you're uncertain about some things for a convention like this - hopefully I've got the answers you need in one of the three journals.

I hope to see you at the panel, but if I don't, I'll see you 'round the halls .

Happy RTX!
1 year ago  |  Comments (7)
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