Dear DesnaToday marks one of the saddest days in my life, the day we lost our dog Desna. She's been with us for 8 years now and over the past 2 she has grown a closer devotion to me so much so that sometimes I was the only person in the world that she would listen to.
I remember when we first got her and she was this big round pudgy ball that looked like her hair was actually a wig from 15th century France. She was a big ball of fur and nothing more. We almost lost her once before when deer wondered into our yard, and in a show of dominance and protection, she and her sister Atlas chased them off and up into the woods. We were able to find Desna that night but not Atlas (we never knew what happened to her).
The worst part is today she was fine, something just happened and she died. She came very close to dying in my arms which scares me on so many levels. Needless to say I'm writing this to help myself cope as well as to honor her. For the past year and a half she has been a constant in my life. She wakes up with me, goes to bed with me, sits next to me while I game. Hell if you've been in an XBL party with me you've surely heard me talk to her.
She helped me in so many ways that I realize now. She kept me sane at night knowing she was always next to me in case something happened. She missed me so much when i left for work it almost hurt me to leave her behind some days and she was always there to great me when i got home and wouldnt stop barking till I petted her upstairs so I would only focus on her.
Desna I will love you forever and the only good this about this is you died painlessly. I hope there is a dog heaven and right now you and Atlas are getting to play together again, just be a lil nicer Desna she is your sister after all. But tonight is going to be a very lonely night for me as I wont on the big D to help me sleep.
ALSO I'm posing this to help me grieve over her, I dont want remarks, comment,s messages, skypes, anything. I just can't handle that right now or probably ever. I just needed to to get this out of me or let it eat away at me.
50/50 ChanceSome people on twitter have asked that I stop being vague and actually explain this 50/50 i keep posting about on Twitter. To be honest I'm not really being vague its just 50/50 is not the offical title of a personal game I'm playing.
Right now as I type this I sit at 47740 gamer score on XBL and have been plowing through the DLC expansion for Oblivion aka the Shivering Isles. Honestly the DLC is kind of more inventive than the main story itself and makes for a really fun play if you pay attention to some of it. But that's all beside the point I SHOULD be talking about what 50/50 means.
Ok so here is the breakdown, back story, and rules for my little game. As you read earlier I'm not really all that far away from hitting 50k in gamer score. BUT I also realized that I'm only really 9 games away from hitting 50 completed games. So I thought, wouldn't it be cool if i could make it to 50k GS AND 50 completed games!! Thus I began doing some research into my gamertag to see what games I was so close to completing but really needed to just file through a few odd achievements.
My plan is simple, complete 8 more games bringing me to 49 completed games and exactly at 49000 GS. Sounds a TAD off doesn't it well once I reach those I am going to start in on Dead Space for my final 1000 bringing me to 50/50. I got the urge to play Dead Space thanks to Michael's Lets Play. I'm usually lucky because he plays games I've either played already or have no interest in. Dead Space just hit me though and I really wanted to play it and go through the whole series. I've already made some preparations to move through the series further after going through Dead Space.
As of Friday March 21st I'll have finished my 42nd game, Elder Scrolls Oblivion after going through my final part of the DLC. That leaves me with just 7 games to finish and 1260 points to get to where I am going to feel comfortable playing Dead Space. I'd make a Lets Play out of it if Michael's wasn't already done, and also very entertaining. I'm honestly no good at things like that as I generally dont talk. But most people are probably wondering, quite planning for shit to do at 50 and start telling us what you need to do to get there.
I do have quite a few games I need community assistance on and finding some people to help are really becoming a rare thing, so lets put a quick list up shall we :)
Firstly here is a list of all the game I have achievements in, as well as said achievements, that need to be done.
Streets of Rage 2 First Verse Online Warrior Online Co-op High Score
Transformers FOC Ballistic Energon Goodie Heavy Metal War Robotopossum Maccadams Old Oil House Rust Marks Ultra Power Master
Puzzle Quest Warlord
TMNT 1989 Strategy Turtle Soup
Halo Reach Don't Touch That Paper Beats Rock All Alone Bounty Hunter
Resident Evil 4 Heart of Steel
Castle Crashers Arena Master Glork
Voltron Five Keys The Vendetta Begins Carried The Team
Modern Warefare 2 Honor Roll Professional Start 69 Downed but not out
Halo 4 This is My Rifle, This is my Gun No Easy Way Out Didn't see it Comin' Bird of Prey Bullet Sponge Flash of Light Last Man Grinning Pigs can Fly Callin' in the Big Guns
That's QUITE a list isn't it. Especially considering most of them require mutliplayer help AND coordinated play between me and the others to make sure I get what I need. Some of them I have found ways around, specifically TMNT1989 and Streets of Rage 2 80k score achievement. Sadly both require some work and since I've gotten a job recently my free time, and honestly my urge to game, has gone a little haywire.
Also I've place a bit of a time limit on myself just to drive toward a goal, sometimes it's always helpful to give yourself a dead line. And honestly with DLC's rolling out I do have some catching up to do. Hell I can't even PLAY some games I have DLC for because right now my gamer tag says I have them 100% and updating them with the DLC achievements will cause BIG problems since I'm trying to get to 49000 even before starting Dead Space.
There are ALSO extra rules to this game.
Rule 1) ONLY games that are currently purchased AND on my gamercard can be completed before starting in on Dead Space; If I need to grind some extra achievement I may go into some of the games I have but have never started, there are actually quite a few surprisingly (sometimes I buy games and forget I did until later or had some plan to play them that never came to fruition)
Rule 2) The time limit is my 29th birthday, June 1st 2013. This basically means I have a little over 3 months to complete all of this.
Rule 3) I cannot in any way effect games completion rating until AFTER this challenge is over. Let me explain that rule; Right now I have Borderlands 2, Mass Effect 3, and Skyrim at 100% completion rating on my gamer card. BUT if you were to look through my achievements I have several missing DLC achievements left in them. THUS i cannot in anyway play these games to grind for score until after I've reached my 50/50 goal. Its a rather silly stipulation but when you think about it I could artificially inflate/deflate my score/completed games to make certain things happen.
I know all these stupid rules seem rather silly but its not a good game without some rules to go along with it, now is it :P
So for anyone who wants to help, give me a shout and we'll set up some time to play. Or at the very least some time help make a game plan.
The CountdownSo after posting my "50" journal last night i ran some numbers....no seriously i made a spreadsheet, counted up achievements and points and ran the numbers. Out of the 1520 I need before starting in on Dead Space I actually have over 5000 points that i can use to get there. Now granted some of these require DLC to get and i actually noted those in my listing (damn I'm a spreadsheet nerd). Now this covers 20 games, only 7 of which I need to get 100% in to reach my 50/50 goal.
Most of them require a lot of work, where as some, if not several, could be done in a couple of days. Out of the 20 I think the easiest to 100% would be Puzzle Quest (only 1 achievement) Halo 4 (2) Halo Reach (4) TMNT 1989 (2) Resident Evil 4 (1) Castle Crashers (2) Voltron (3) and CoD:MW 2 (4)
While that's actually a little under half the total list but 3 of the games that require DLC (well ok maybe 5 or 6 require DLC) would ruin my 100% rating in them. Namely Skyrim, Mass Effect 3, and Borderlands 2. My X-box considers those 3 games 100% and since I can't afford all the DLC (im missing all the latest from all 3 of those games) at the time putting them in my x-box would hinder more than help me right now. So those are out even though each of them would net a 100 or so.
Really I need to turn to the community. All the games I mentioned, save RE4, require multiplayer achievements, or the help of others to properly complete them. What i could really use right now is a lot of support or some people who really excel at the games I need. If I can get the 100% completion out of the way it would be a nice start since then I could really focus on what games I can play to get the easiest amount of points OR until I have time to afford DLC to those previously mentioned 3 games.
So I guess I'm turning to you, and your friends, and anyone who thinks they can help me :)
I'M 50!!! (almost)Last night I completed my 42nd game, Halo Anniversary, and realized I'm 2520 points away from reaching 50k gamerscore. This is kinda an accomplishment for me as this the 3rd year I've had this gamertag after having to remake my first one due to technically difficulties and loss of X-boxes and basically thinking I needed a reboot. Of course i only had the old tag for um...i actually dont know how long actually. I really didn't have a lot of games on even that gamertag.
This one though has meant a lot to me since I've basically gained all my friends here from RT and other places there and been able bring them all together. Its the tag i use for achievement hunter videos, where i first made videos, and where i really got to enjoy all things gaming, achievement, and perfection again.
Of course now comes the question, what to do when i hit 50k. I have a few arcade games I haven't even started. Honestly, I dont want to start them considering how many games I have i can still go mining achievements in. That actually got me thinking, do i have enough games left to get to 50 I think but i also want to do something special. I've been starting over my achievement list/games and realize that I could easily have 50 games completed by the time i got to 50k!
In truth i only need 1520 as I have Dead Space sitting in front of me not played meaning that its the missing 1000 after the 1520 is obtained, ya know for people doing math and wondering why 1k went missing. I'm gonna be making a list for myself and hopefully before June will break the 50k marker. If i really get motivated I could have it sooner but before my b-day i want to break 50k.
I'll be posting updates, for those you care, and i actually need to go through all my games and create an excel file where i really make sure i can do/achieve in both a reasonable manner and before my deadline.
I will have to ask for some help on some of these considering most of the ones I really need imply mutli-player achievements or a group in order to achieve them AND help complete the game. SO 2520 points, a little under 4 months and more or less working within the confines of getting more out of things I've already done. Damn i like to put restrictions on myself dont I.
New Years RevelationWith us two weeks into the new year I thought it would be time for me let everyone know what I'm planning to make of myself in 2013. As most of you know I've spent the last year trying to find work while also trying to do a few things here and there along the way. Though with the new year comes a time of reflection, and for me a rather startling realization. Now why share any of this with you, I potentially need advice.
As most of you know since graduating I've spent my time at home trying to find jobs. My year has started off like most of last year, applying for jobs, being rejected, and being consoled by my parents and working on trying to find a new job to apply for.
Now to understand where I'm about to come from I need to take a moment to tell a somewhat funny somewhat depressing story. While in my final quarter of school I had a professor who was rather angry at me. Well in truth he was angry because he believed that i had handed him 50 blank DVDs for a project he had me on. Well of course it just turned out his old computer couldn't play the DVDs and they worked on almost literally every other machine in the building and laptops. It made him feel a tad silly and later we got to an understanding about our misunderstandings and left on what i hope were good terms.
During this little um, interlude, he gave me quite a dressing down of what he thought of me. Mostly that he wasn't sure how i was going to make it in the world, that other professors didn't think well of me, and most importantly (well to him) that one of the professors for editing said i was average and there were other people more talented than me to do the work I was doing. In truth at the time he was right and the only reason I was working on said project was they wanted to get me out the door. Not the most altruistic motives I grant you.
It was rather interesting for one thing that has stuck in my head. He said "what are you gonna do just go home and live with your parents, are they just gonna pat you on the head and say "good boy"" and i realized....hes right! Don't get me wrong my parents are loving people but they are also very protective of their kids. But is that a problem? have i been sheltered so much in my life that rejection is just something i can shrug off because my parents will really try to shield me from myself? I mean I have grown as a person but I realize it now that anything I have ever done has been far and away from family and any influence outside of a phone call (which i made a habit of ignoring out of the boredom of it) I gained a good job while in school, got in as part of an actual movie set, and forced my way through waves of set backs and roadblocks set up by others.
I'm worried the more i stay home the more I'm growing comfortable, lazy, and unable to really get my life started. The biggest thing holding me back is money but should I just give in move, and make my best try and making ends meet? I think if i have no choice i can make something happen for me but where I am now is feeling like its suffocating me because I'm so far away from anything from my profession (which i think is also slowing me down) But I'm also a creature of habit, I'm here already living for a year. I feel im just spinning my wheels in place and really would just like more input before i make a decision.
Reality Sinking InI post this not for reads, not for comments, and not for any other reason than to get it out of my head. As November 17th I'll be one year removed from ending my time in graduate school and earning my Masters. Since then I've returned home, and waited. Waited for my life to head into a direction by trying to find work, and to that end I've watched the world sit and spin for the past year.
This probably has been one of the most depressing thing I've done in my life as it wears you down, it breaks you apart at your core knowing that people may be ignoring you, or worse yet seeing you and deeming you unfit to even call you back. I've torn myself apart privately on if its me thats the issue, if i was unprepared for the real world, or if i really am meant to do anything in life other than sit, grow old and die. I know that sounds horribly morbid but reflecting over the past year I find im to well educated for normal work, which is kinda weird to say but i doubt most people want anyone around with a masters degree; and now I feel I'm to under worked to be employed in my chosen field.
Its amazing how trying to do things for yourself while unprepared is kind of like trying to stumble around in the dark praying you dont hit something dangerous.
I just wish i knew how to change the course my life has taken.
Also i meant what i said, i just needed to get this out of my head, not for comments, likes or anything else so please dont post them.
Stone by day, Warrior by nightIn 1994 my local ABC station would air this almost perfect concoction called the Disney Afternoon. It was where great shows like Ducktales, Darkwing Duck, TailSpin, and Gargoyles would air. Well Today marks the 12 year anniversary of one of the greatest kids shows to be put out on the planet.
Gargoyles had everything a kid could ask for, fantastical creatures, easy to understand concepts, and great villains. But as i grew older I found that I couldn't stop watching this show over and over, there was something special about it, something more magical that i never got. The magic comes from the writing, yes the show about stone warriors who come to life by moonlight had GREAT WRITING.
You can tell you're in for a ride when you aren't only introduced to the main characters when they are in their prime, which happens to be during the time of the vikings, but also the persecution they feel by being the protectors of their realm but everyone only wants them to be that. When peace is abound they are shunned like pariahs with limbs falling off. Its kinda dis-heartening and i found myself, even as a child going, "these people are mean.....why do you protect them?" The answer comes but only with Shakespearean like pathos to go with it. This sets off the series proper but i am doing you a great disservice by going on further.
I guess why i really loved this series was at the time the Disney Afternoon was a daily thing Monday through Friday and gave the writers time to develop stories, lay great plot threads, and teach through entertainment. Really i have so many thoughts on this show that if you've never seen it or heard of it GO FIND IT!! I dont care if your fucking 30, this show will enamour you from beginning to end. Though um, skip the sequel series "The Goliath Chronicles" only a few of those episodes really hit the original show run level of great and the ending is very Disney.
Converstion 101*ATTENTIONS: this is only meant for Mac users....PC users im sorry i haven't researched into your realm to much to solve this problem, if it exists' Also special thanks to Caleb and BioHRay for helping me find the the answers to this issue*
A few things have cropped up in the completion of my latest AH community videos so I need to share to help other people who are having the same issue I am. I'm gonna chronicle this point by point to help people along so they dont have to read this as a whole and can just skip to what issue they are having but first I need to explain my workflow so people can understand where I'm coming from.
My workflow is as follows: I record on a Hauppauge 1221 model that records at 60 frames per second in 720p resolution I transfer the data into a Final Cut Pro and edit and export them at .mov with h.246 codec
OK with that out of the way here is what I had to do to get youtube to accept my videos, as there seems to be some encoding errors or something going on with the main site. So for now this is the workaround for it.
Step 2) After installing the program you will get this screen. -you open files by File - Open Files twitpic.com/8lr503
Step 3) When Exporting your going to get a lot of options but go with .AVI twitpic.com/8lr5dh
This will bring up this prompt which should default to the DIVX codec, if it does'nt make sure it does. twitpic.com/8lr5j3
Then click the options button (Do if your using HD footage if now your SD footage should export properly though if it doesn't IE you get a blank screen with just the audio playing when you try playback.) twitpic.com/8lr5pd
Then just go back to the previous menu click make .avi in the lower right hand corner and after that it will export, even gives you a preview window though really it serves no purpose.
Then upload the .avi. you'll keep your HD looks AND get around those pesky problems with youtube, saving Caleb some trouble while your at it :P