Ok. Real talk.
Hi. You're not going to like this but I have to say it. It's eating me up inside and I have to talk about it. So please bear with me. Don't read it if you're not interested in what I have to say.
I've been on the site for a little while now. Over a year. I had a year journal all ready to release thanking each one if you that have been a friend to me. But that list got shorter and shorter until there was only a few left on there. People I considered to be my best friends have really shown their true colours and it breaks my heart.
Now don't get me wrong, I have happy memories of this community. But here. Right now. I'm upset and actually scared. I'm scared to come on this site because every time I look someone is pulling some kind of passive aggressive bullshit on me. Every time.
People have told me to ignore it. There's plenty on people who love me. But are there? Are there really? I get so much negativity and bad news from the site these days I'm finding that hard to believe.
So here's the deal. You win. You've made me feel the lowest I've ever felt. But even with no self esteem left, I'm still going to keep doing what I'm doing. Honest to god, I know the majority of you think I'm annoying, useless, selfish and ugly but I'm going to carry on. RvB:Scotland, Rooster Teeth is Fashionable, The Rooster Teeth Safe Room, the Eargasm Podcast, RT Radio, Community Comics... All of my ventures mean the world to me, and folks can tear them to pieces but I'll keep going anyways.
Sorry for not putting this politically but quite frankly I've got nothing to lose. I'm terrified of the backlash this'll get but fingers crossed the handful of people who still like me will understand. Also I must give a shoutout to the rt twitter community who have been awesome.
I deserve to be here just as much as anyone else. Everything I do in this community is to make it a happier place. I'm here because I love Rooster Teeth, just like you. This probably made no sense but thanks for reading. Trolls and "friends" please feel free to do what you always do. I won't mention this again now I've got it off my chest.