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Self ImageI forget sometimes that I'm an attractive or like able person. You might say that I have a poor self image, I'd rather think that this observation is the result of my consistently high standards. The fact that I am liked and likable, surprises me. At times it becomes a fact that I cannot ignore when the behavior of others cannot be explained by politeness or social protocol, but instead are the result of their honest appreciation of me. When this happens, I am either ashamedly surprised or arrogantly self assured. There is no middle ground.

We are a society which adores self confidence and yet abhors the plain statement of this self assurance. It is a part of the dance that I only know to do unconsciously. When I perform, which is to say when I am around others, I must be oblivious to the very qualities which I acknowledge with my self assurance. So it is thus that I am surprised when someone calls me out on my achievement of earnest confidence backed by true skill. Perhaps this is part of the dance too, for if I were not surprised by my own achievement in earning their admiration then I would be conceited and thus unattractive.

I guess to me I'm just me, nothing special, just same old person who's always hanging around me. And I forget then that others do not know me, and that in fact there might be something special in the time we spend with others.

I could say that I'm lucky when I look at others and see what I have that they do not. But that would not be true, for I once had little and worked to make something of myself so I am not lucky. Except in that I tried and succeeded.
I hope as much for anyone.

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Occupation Bringing out the philosopher in people.
Birthday July 5th, 1988
Interests Economic Theory Existentialism Hiking Camping Canoeing Cannoning Jogging Drawing Writing
Music Billy Joel Queen Beethoven Tchikovsky The Beatles Electric Light Orchestra (ELO) Credence Clearwater Revival (CCR) Sir Elton John David Bowie Rolling Stones Led Zeppelin Simon and Garfunkle Green Day The Gorillaz Iron and Wine Sting Coltrane Kansas ZZ Top The Red Hot Chile Peppers Cake The Decemberists
Movies The Usual Suspects The Trueman Show I Heart Hukabees Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind Monty Python's Serch for the Holy Grail Hitchcock films The Hunt for Red October Dr. Strangelove or How I Learned to Stop Worrying and Love the Bomb
TV Shows Ghost In the Shell: Stand Alone Complex The Venture Brothers South Park The Daily Show The Colbert Report The Simpsons (middle years) Family Guy FLCL Neon Genesis Evangelion Cowboy Bebop Invader Zim Sea Lab 2021 Frisky Dingo
Books The Catcher in the Rye Of Mice and Men 1984 other American Classics the Dictionary the original is still the best