Kenji_wolf9

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from no where, TX

    • Kenji_wolf9

      A lost art

      2 years ago

      Well seems like forever and a half since I have been on rooster teeth. I really do not know why, but probably cause trying to get my life started and such has slowly taken over my life ( ironic right?) but to be honest part of me keeps thinking about what my life before now use to be like and I am so glad all that stuff is behind me. Mainly because now more doors are opening as to what my carrier is, becoming a welder. While yes I have been welding for the last couple years just barn work and such and a little sculpture work I plan to make this my life cause to be honest manual labor is the only thing i am good at. I can not see myself sitting at some desk everyday filling out paper work and staring at some monitor all day long. I enjoy hard work and sweating and getting my hands dirty it's in me to be a hard worker and not a pencil pusher.
      While yes i do agree the new generations of life are becoming more and more technical were everything seems to be running on a computer or operated by one (more lazier people in my opinion), but welding is still all hands on work and even so they are making welding robots, I can not and do not see those taking over the industry at-least not in my life time. It still takes a human hand to get that correct weld and to be able to move the bead of the electrode. Making that bead and leaving that weld is my signature and if you were to go to some fabrication shop or work site with welders you would can see all the different welding techniques and each welder could tell you which one is there's and who everyone else's is.
      It's hard for me to keep waking up every morning and here i am 19 and already i feel like i have lived my life to the fullest and seen everything and then I see these high school kids who are probably all a year or just months younger then me and hell they all talk about big corporation jobs an such and i just look at them confused. My generation at least everyone in my class went on to be some kind of engineers or something that was manual labor still, then this next class under us..... it was pretty a big realization that the hard workers, the generations that used there hands, giving there sweat, blood and tears into there work is gone now. To keep myself sane in the shop everyday i keep telling myself there is probably some kid in ohio trying to become a better welder then me.
      I don't know where i am exactly going with this rant but as you can tell i am a passionate person when it comes to my welding. While even in the shop I am the 3rd youngest being at 19 while i have people in there 30's-40's coming up and asking me a "new blood" (welding term for new person) for how they can make there welds better and what can they do to become better while i have only less then 5 years of welding under my belt and the instructors have over 20+ and i just feel weird cause It's hard to see these people in there late 40's and such going into a field where they only have a limited time left and here i am just starting my life and pretty much going at this head strong and at will.
      To some it seems a bit insane, having to show up everyday to a welding shop. wearing pants, long sleeve shirts, then wearing protective leather jackets and such while constantly dealing with hot metal and toxic fumes that could mess me up at any moment. It just seems crazy to most people, but hey it's a living occupational hazard at it's best. But hey I am happy yes i do give my girl-friend panic attacks when i am late home and such cause she hopes not to have that call saying im in the hospital but she knows the risks and even so I will (not anytime soon) be working with Carcinogen based metals (cancer related/ causing metals) I hope i won't have to work with those kinda metals but if I do it may cause problems in the long run but nothing as of short term affects.
      Yes i know i am ranting and raving about how welding is everything to me and such it was just the other day me and some friend of mine were talking about our welding techniques and such and some stranger out of the blue just insulted us about how welders are all convicts, and how we all are destroying the planet and just stinking up the place , to be honest this normally does not offend me....But that day it was a shit day mainly, ventilation was not working and the A/C was frozen over so inside our booths it was 115 degrees while outside it was a cool 90 degrees so mainly we where all pissed and offend and yeah.... you could see the soot covering our faces and clothes, slag/ wire wheel embedded in our clothes as well and some blood from slag cutting us up while sweat dripping off our clothes, we looked like we just came out of war zone.

      The sun is gone the night is young, but there is still work to be done
      when all is said and done i do not care for the rewards of my work only that i have given it my all and left my mark,
      this is my life, my work, my love, my passion, this is who i am. Do not judge me for the actions and misdeeds of others, but judge me as who i am even if you don't know me.
      My work is done, the day is young. but there is still more to be done.
      I work till my body is tired, but i do not stop, i work will i am done, then work more.
      The sun is hot, the wind is cold, the metal it burns, my body it burns.
      sweat, tears, blood, pain, happiness, sorrow.
      The sun it sets and the moon she rises, the chill cools the earth and my work complete and content
      I am a welder, and this is my life.
      The sun is gone the night is young, but there is still work to be done.

      - D.

    • Kenji_wolf9

      Relationship

      3 years ago

      I don't know right now, me and Brenna have been agruing a lot lately and it seems like every little thing i say or do has either pissed her off or just made her want to leave me.....I really do not know what to do anymore.... I guess a good example of something is, I said i did not want to turn the lights on because it was going to make the room hot and now she is mad at more for turning them on and not leaving them off.... so im just really confused right now.
      Just some one if anyone has any advise on what to do it would help, also me and her live 9 hours apart so we can't really see each other but once a month, but it's so close to summer and move-ins for the drum corp we are planning to march together in I don't want to screw this up, yet i feel like i have....I don't want to be like her ex's just another regret in her life.... So I will basiclly do anything for her or have been doing anything and everything for you.... I never ask anything of her because it does not feel right to.... so if anyone has any advise on how to fix what's going on between me and her...please tell me or give me some advice it would help....
      thanks....

    • Kenji_wolf9

      Weekend

      3 years ago

      Well, now this was a interesting weekend, seeing as I did a 6 hour flight to dayton, ohio. Which is still Cold as F&*# this time of year.... but still the flight went pretty smoothly and I was put next to some cool interesting people seeing as it was my second or third time flying some where I did not really have much to worry about, except for the fact that delta is a lot better then SouthWest is, and my seat partners where really cool. On the flight from Austin to Atlanta I was between some chick from Oregon who was going to Atlanta to visit some family their and a older gentleman from New Mexico who is a WWII veteran going to North Carolina to see his Grandson get married and he told us his story about how he landed on Omaha and it was really nice hearing his stories because now a days we don't take the time to just sit down and listen to someone while they talk, so as such me and the girl where sitting their listening and she suddenly leaned on my back listening and we both sat their as he talked and we all had a good time, so once we landed we all said our good byes and such hoping the other had a nice and safe flight to where they where headed. Once in Atlanta (which is the biggest airpot in the world) I nearly got lost because I had to take a subway train to get to my gate area and just arriving with enough time, i managed to grab me some food and eat before we took off. And once again I was put next to some cool people. One was headed to Dayton (like me ) for the WGI finals and such, while the other dude was going their to do some DJ stuff and try to get his name out their, and as such he let me listen to some of his music he created which was not half bad. We all passed out as such but ended up being the last ones off as we scrambled off the plane I some how lost my Ipod in the process of this all and as such now someone has a brand new ipod with them....
      but still once in Dayton I ran to be picked up and such going to the show without a warm-up or anything really as I got dressed in the car and then once their just stretched a lot and after words. IT was a nice trip to say the least dayton is cool city and such but not a lot of local eating places which is what really disappointed me. but the bus ride home was not to bad except for the part where the A/C froze over form the cold and such so it was pretty bad deal.... especially in Texas and Arkansa weather/ heat....
      But other then that everything went smoothly I had a great time with my brothers and sisters in Imperial Percussion Theatre and made a lot of awesome friends/ memories.

    • Kenji_wolf9

      walls....their every where

      3 years ago

      yup.... i have been hitting a lot and i mean a lot of walls lately, first one i can remember right now was just during rehearsal this last weekend I was reaching my limit with everything and everyone, i know i yelled at some people. umm, actually just my body saying F!@# YOU!!!! because of how beat up it is... right now i have 2 wrist braces on, 2 knee braces, some pressure bandages around my chest area and all that so....
      I can barely do anything right now, but got a nice hair cut shaved both sides of my head and its looks really cool, but some how keep getting mistaken for a girl... which makes no sense right now, because i have facial hair which is fair thick, but its just mainly a beard and even so....some how i always keep getting mistaken for a girl with my new hair....But anyways im also typing with the brace on which feels really awkward right now, but still i am enjoying this down time i have before finals in dayton this weekend....well more like friday/ saturday night, then back on the road home, which means the end of indoor season and then back into the saddle for drum corp where i will be marching bottom bass drum, for those who do not know that is a 32" drum which weighs between 65-75 something pounds and it is the biggest drum marching on the field while little old 5' 8" me gets to march that beast of a drum.
      So any who, just letting you all know whats going on, still dealing with a lot of things right now and i can't seem to figure out what is actually wrong with me....until then see you all later and msg me

      -kei

    • Kenji_wolf9

      Importance

      3 years ago

      I don't know why i bother going back.
      I mean to be honest the corp doesn't even need me, my girlfriend seems to have everything under control and everyone keeps going to her for answers and I just feel third'd wheeled whenever I goto the camps and me and her are walking around, because the rookies always goto her and even the battery (drumline) people also goto her and she is on the horn-line!!!!.....
      I know i can't be their much and I just want to help my corp become great, but it's hard to understand why I bother staying, I love the corp and I love everything about it....but I just wish I would be considered some importance to them all.... *sigh* I don't know anymore, I'll be their for the corp and everyone during the summer, but I do not expect it to go how I hope it does. Wish me luck guys, this summer seems like it could be a long one.

    • Kenji_wolf9

      LIFE #8

      3 years ago

      WELL lets see.... I am now working at a tire recycling factory in my town, and also doing part-time welding job around the town, I have also been accepted to Lincoln Technical Institute in Grand Prairie, TX and so if you ever been to texas or live in texas, Grand Prairie is right down the round from DFW area.... so hit me up my friends if you ever come by the area next fall. I am also doing my writing still while also composing some music of my own (which I hope to play at a club in austin eventually).

      While i am still some how keeping myself sain and doing stuff, because my day mainly is, just wake up, goto school, sit in class/listen to lectures all day, go home and then sit at my desk, playing mine craft, working on my music in abelton, listening to music, and writing some stories. So mainly im bored and lost right now. I wish I still had live but won't for awhile now maybe i'll have it again in May? but even then I'll probably end up having live once more when Im back home for the summer, seeing as DCI takes up all my summer time, but I can't complain, I enjoy marching DCI and can't wait for the summer to hit :D
      I have been listening to alt of Skrillex, Deadmau5, and Datsik which are all really good electronic artists in my opinion. even so I just really am trying to figure stuff out for the future and hope everything works out really well, I plan to have some new desktop speakers eventually and can't wait to see which one's the store im going to has, while also I hope to be getting a actual desk (when in college) but the thing is that Lincoln let's you bring your own furniture for the 10 months you are their, so I may just end up bringing my giant wood desk top, cinderblocks, and new roller chair with me to campus as well as all my MIDI pads and such plus my light station also just incase I ever do get to DJ at some parties or something like that?
      any how that is really all that's been going so far in my life, so message me and such I like/ want to talk with people right now....

      Peace

      -kei

    • Kenji_wolf9

      Temptation

      3 years ago

      Well, it's been awhile since I have written anything in this journal which has been forever
      I really don't know what else, life has been pretty much keeping me on edge and just the way things have been, yes I do admit I was in a state of deep depression for awhile their but have recently come out of it....While most might no find this interesting or just don't care about it all that much, but to any who actually read this, I hope you all understand that while yes I did do some stupid things while in my depression one I wish i had never done or gone back to smoking once more, I know it's a bad habit and all, but what else can you do when your on edge 24/7 ??? to all of you who have smoked or still are, do not be hypocrites towards this or bad mouth it. I don't care for the fact that I know smoking is bad but I need something to keep me calm and even cause riding my bike for 12+ miles everyday is not working out for me anymore....I still ride my bike but just a simple cigarette has kept me calm for the last 3 days now so yes.....
      To all those who are my friends please understand, we all have our way of calming down and trying to stay even minded and keep our anger down and such.... so please im not asking you o accept this but what i do ask is if you, just let me be who I am and only be here to help me when I need it as I will do the same for you all.

      peace and good living

      -kei

    • Kenji_wolf9

      Devil Temptation Part 2 of 2

      3 years ago

      Devils Temptation
      Chapter 1
      Part 1: A time to Remember

      hours later back at the hotel, Luciferia was getting ready for her date with eh mystery man from the coffee shop. As this was more then just a date, most likely a life changing experience

      Sighing, and looking at the mirror, I had my hair tied in a pony tail and my leather pants on along with my stiletto boots as they reach up to my knee’s finally pulling my corset on as it made my ‘girls’ more bigger. As the corset only reached just below my ribs smiling liking my look and grabbing my jacket, phone taking the elevator down to the lobby.

      Standing outside the hotel, snow began to fall and pulling my jacket tight around me i stood their waiting as cars came in and out of the drive. After about ten minutes I started walking back to the hotel thinking it was too good to be true....honk honk .... I turned around to see a lightening blue mustang behind me and the guy climbing out as he was wearing denim straight leg jeans, biker boots, very tight shirt that outlined every one of his muscles, his hair tied back in a pony tail as well while two bangs hung on either side.

      “ Hello....I didn’t think you would show....” I said looking away from his blue eyes, as I kept my jacket tight around my body wondering what he would think of me wearing such a revealing outfit, as I suddenly feeling the leather hugging my crotch very tight remembering I wasn’t wearing any underwear and once more could feel my face get hot.
      “Sorry I was late, boss held me over for being late this morning” He said, opening the passenger door for me “Now my lady let me show you what this town has to offer” He said as a weird grin came across his face, as I climbed into the car. But for some reason I had a odd feeling this was not going to be a 'normal' night.

  • Comments (13)

    • doll

      doll

      3 years ago

      it's a manga, turned into an anime, that is very popular. it's about a girl who is really smart and gets into a rich kids highschool. she ends up meeting the host club, but everyone things she's a dude, cause well, she looked like a dude in the beginning, anyways, you just have to read it, i mean if you don't mind some weird stuff going on every so often.

    • Kenji_wolf9

      Kenji_wolf9

      3 years ago

      bored how?

    • doll

      doll

      3 years ago

      we got bored

    • Kenji_wolf9

      Kenji_wolf9

      3 years ago

      your welcome

    • doll

      doll

      3 years ago

      thanks. ^w^

    • Kenji_wolf9

      Kenji_wolf9

      3 years ago

      your welcome Kitty :)

    • doll

      doll

      3 years ago

      thank you =3

    • Kenji_wolf9

      Kenji_wolf9

      3 years ago

      your welcome

    • doll

      doll

      3 years ago

      thanks

    • Kenji_wolf9

      Kenji_wolf9

      3 years ago

      you did, its just how i pictured them as well