nothingatall

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      Double Standards

      11 months ago

      Ya know, with the rise in feminism lately, everyone's focussing on females' rights, and females having to act a certain way. In all honesty, I'm fine with this. I wanna talk about the reverse for now. What about men? You think women are bad, for men it's either you're a man, or you're gay. I'm a straight male, who's watching Eat Pray Love, and you know what? I'm into it. It's a good movie. And it's really sad that so many men hate it because "it makes you feel." Now, I can imagine what the average male is thinking: "this guy's secretly gay." I'm not, I know I'm not, but I also know I can't convince you I'm not. Maybe it's something you're born with, maybe you just have to be raised this way. Just know, there are men out there, straight men, who can feel, who don't need to hold onto their "man card" to feel complete. To you guys, if you feel this way deep down, and you're hiding it, let it out. It's what's best for you, to be yourself. To you women, these guys aren't like the ones in your chick flicks. Most of the time, they're not gorgeous hunks you'd spot in a crowd. They're your average Joe's. Random guys you pass on the street.
      In closing, be yourself. Don't let anyone tell you who you are, or how to act. Only you can know.

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      World Peace

      1 year ago

      When someone says something like "I wish for world peace" or "If only we could have world peace" it makes me angry. World peace is attainable. In truth, one group even came close! You know who they were? A little alliance called the Soviet Union. People don't like to think about the difference between peace and happiness. In all honesty, "world happiness" is what we should be wishing for. If aliens were to enslave us tomorrow, and we were placed in farms to be harvested for food, we would have world peace. You disagree? Proof: none of us would be fighting. That, right there is the difference between peace and happiness. Now, I'm not really one to make the decision which is more important, and in all likelihood, neither are you, dear reader. But honestly, if you had the power to end all forms of violence between humans, or to make everyone happy, which would you do?

    • nothingatall

      1 year ago

      Welp. My social life, as I know it, is over. I'm out of school now, and I don't know what to do. I was never a very social person to begin with. I never really hung out with friends much, outside of school. I'm very comfortable sitting at home and painting my WH40K models. Now, I'm actually kinda regretting it. Sure, I'll always need my time alone, but now I feel I'll always be alone. And the majority of my friends are all moving away. People say "you'll make new friends" like at the places I work, but I don't want new friends. It's taken me so long to get to know and trust these ones, and I've invested a lot in them. Now I need to start over. I'll come out and say it: I'm depressed school has ended. It's a whole new world that I'm gonna have to get used to, but I'm not so good at adapting.

      And it's at this time I'd like to count my... Regrets throughout high school involving girls. The first girl, my first ever, what I believed at the time to be, love. I should have never dated her. She broke me internally, and I wanted to do the same to her. The second, I should have never dumped. Damn, that was stupid. She may not have been the prettiest of them, but my gosh, was she loving. But, as soon as I did dump her, she moved on. That's the only hint that I have that it still would have been bad later on. And last, but probably most, my third crush. Should have gone out with her when I had the chance. But I believed her imperfect, and still do, so I never pursued her. Even when, thinking back on it, she might have been throwing hints my way. Now, I'll probably never see her again. *sigh* If number four ever gets the chance to read this, please don't hurt me like number one did. Please wait for my anger to cool down if we ever break up, to see if there's a chance to get back together, unlike what number two did. And if what you're looking for is love, then never give up on me like number three did. Because one thing all of those girls had in common was I always came back to them on my knees. And got burned every time.

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      Exs

      1 year ago

      Have you ever had an ex-girlfriend/boyfriend thrown back into your life and just been expected by mutual friends to get along? I know, poorly phrased question, so here's my situation:
      About a month or two ago one of my friends came to me and said he was gonna start a new D&D campaign, and he wanted me to join in. I'd always been into the Lore, but never played it. So I thought why not. The first night it was just me and some guy friends. I had fun and decided I was definitely gonna go again. The next time however, my tom-boy ex-girlfriend, whom I haven't really spoken with in three years, showed up. Turns out she couldn't make the last session, but had planned to join in the whole time. We've had a session a week since, and for the most part I've been pretty reserved, because obviously, it's a little awkward. Oh, but she's doing fine from what I can tell, didn't really show any hint of discomfort. Until tonight. Tonight, I was feeling kinda hyper, and I acted on it. I decided to act more myself, and I was actually having fun. And then she went and did what I was doing the last previous sessions. Stopped talking as much, even going so far as to leave the room a few times. Can we not both have fun? Yeah, it's still a little awkward when we have to talk, but I can get over it. And she acts like she's strong willed and a badass, can't she get over it? It just confounds me, out of all the people I know, she is so hard to read.
      I honestly can't tell if it was me, or if there was something else going on. I hope it's the latter, but I can't help but think about the former. Damn my overactive imagination. I wish my friends would tell me, but knowing the intricate web of secrets and gossip among us, I doubt that will happen. We'll see what happens next time, if one of us will be closed off, or if we both can have a great time.

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      My Dream/Nightmare

      1 year ago

      I have a dream. More of a nightmare, really. It's like two separate memories overlapped, happening at the same time, yet neither of them ever happened. In them I'm with someone, a woman, a lover. Girlfriend, wife, friend with benefits, I know not.
      I'm kissing her neck. I can feel her soft, smooth skin against my lips, smell her pheromone filled aroma, and hear her moans of ecstasy. The thought would be arousing if not for the other part. On the flip side, I feel my teeth sink into her exposed, vulnerable neck, taste the coppery flavor of blood on my tongue, feel it running down my throat, spilling down my chin, and hear her screams of pain.
      What scares me most about this dream is that I don't feel horror or disgust at what I'm doing, only thrill and longing.

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      The Human Body in Spaaace.

      1 year ago

      My Aerospace Science Instructor is famous in our school for saying 'We need to get off our planet someday' but 'space is not kind to warm pudgies.' I've always been interested in adaptation, mutation, and augmentation, though with very little love for anything that makes my stomach heave, I haven't done much thinking about it, aside from basic human anatomy.
      My Aerospace Science Instructor and all of the biology teachers I've had have been pouring down my throat 'We need Oxygen, without Oxygen we will die.' I asked myself, why? Well for respiration, of course. But during respiration, don't we expel Oxygen in the form of Carbon Dioxide? Is that all we use Oxygen for? I did some research, and the answer is yes, we use Oxygen simply to expel Carbon, because we have no other way of getting rid of the element.
      Now imagine if we could expel Carbon in some other way. That would eliminate our need to breath. We could survive a lot longer in space if we didn't have to breath.
      Now let's look closer at Carbon. It makes up approximately 18% of our bodies, and is the basic building block for molecules in practically every cell. But what else could we use it for? If I'm not mistaken, Carbon in it's solid state can made to be fairly durable. Maybe we could use it for some form of exoskeleton.
      Maybe we could use it to reenforce our bones. And that got me looking into why we need Calcium. In actuality, Calcium is used for many different body function, but stored in our bones, and surprise, surprise, is only used there to keep skeletal integrity. But as I said, what if we could use Carbon to do the same?
      I think the Exoskeleton is also a good idea, too, because that gives us a way of expelling the Element; through shedding. After all, we already shed skin, just not in one big lump.
      Imagine a "human" that has evolved to having a Carbon enforced endoskeleton and exoskeleton, and no longer needs oxygen. Well, that solves our breathing problem, and possibly our pressure problem we would run into in Space. That leaves temperature and locomotion.
      With temperature we could go for two approaches, with both having their own flaws; we could increase or decrease our body temperature. This would work if we wanted to remain in space indefinitely, but makes planetfall a little difficult. We would have to be in some kind of suit to regulate our body temperature. Then again, it's probably better than relying on life support in space, which could essentially be our new home one day. Of the two, decreasing our body temperature is probably the better choice, because it would mean we would need to consume less energy to keep us warm.
      And finally we come to locomotion. This is where I'm afraid we may be bound to technology the most. I've seen in many Sci-Fi shows creatures that can "swim" in space, but I think these are inaccurate and improbable. What do they use to 'push off' of? So, easy fix, personal 'jump packs'. Simple thrusters to help us manoeuvre.
      Now comes the question of 'How are we going to change ourselves to be like this?' And that's were I leave greater minds than myself to find a way. Remember, these are all theories and speculations.
      If I got any of my facts wrong, I apologise. Please feel free to leave you're opinions/theories in the comments.

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